You know when you get a really bad cut, you don’t always notice it right away? That happens with hot girls too. This one was waiting to board the same train as me just now and I looked at her and it was like 5 seconds of not registering anything, then it hit me 3 steps later and I was like, holy shit, she’s fucking hot. Then you realize you’ll never ever get her and the wound gushes and gushes, then you make up excuses in your head and rationalize and trivialize and relativize and the bleeding finally stops and it starts to scab over.